wad`s wrg wif mi tis few daes.......i felt vry stress or having depression..or so.....n kept losing my temper.....i reali had no idea wad causes mi to become lyk tis.....
i reali lamented bout it...y i had chosen to taken tis path ??? m i out of my mind......??? i m reali stressed out...wheneva an unknown no. called my phone , i went paranoid......n became undecisive...shld i pick up the cor or ignore it ?????
i reali hope tat sum1 wil understand how i am feeling nw.......confusion n frustration....(can u all stop pressurizing mi).....i mean not to my parents.......... but to sum1 ....cant u all let mi hav a break ...let mi catches some breath........but come to tink of it , it was precisely my fault...due to my stubborness...my feeling....i was completely went out of my mind on tat dae....was it bcos of the influence of my peer ?? or ...i reali don noe wad i had done on tat dae...can the time be rewind ???? cann everytin repeat again on tat dae????...i swear i wont be making tis silly n dumb n horrible mistake again.......how i wish ...i don go to recess on tat fateful dae.......i reali lamented......how i wish i come to a new world tat no 1 knows mi .....then i can start every tin again.....can i do tat ??? i tink the ans is yes , unless i go to another country....how i wish i can be tat rich......i wonder how m i goin to face tose ppl when sch reopen...pretend nth has happpen???or smile ???? or wheneva i see them ...run away as fast as i could...????hmmm..........all tis tot has been flashing on my mind.....or can i lost my memory ??? ...better not.......haiz.....i reali don wan to continue to walk on tis pathway..it was vry tough n not suitable for mi...i reali wan to be myself...since tat time i had chosen tis route ...i could hardly smile..or reali vry happi.....i felt lyk i had been force to do so.or i had been forcing myself to do so..y m i so stupid ???can tis problem be solve ???? can sum1 come n rescue mi.....it was lyk hell !!!! I M SUFFERING !!!!!
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